Changing your perspective on the spot is not hard. But it is hard for others to understand sometimes. A revelation isn't always a complete change of heart. It could also be a burst of courage to do something you know should have happened long ago.
Last night I made a decision that would change every aspect of my life. I have been in a relationship that I thought I could change for the better. Up until last night I thought that everything had a chance of working out. Then I looked into the past and saw the things that I should have realized very early on. Here are the facts:First off, I am not an abusive person. I will never be an abusive person. I would never strike a woman. I was taught never to do this at a very young age and it has always stuck. Second of all, I have a little girl. I have, for the past year and a half of her life, been living my life without any regard to her future. In the event that something between another woman and I were to happen while she was around, I would never forgive myself. Lastly, I have been lost in the sound of similarity. Having things in common with someone does not mean that your personalities won't clash. Sharing the same interests and hobbies will not make your relationship or your communication skills any better. For the sake of all that holy, get out of a relationship if you can't see past tomorrow with that person.
Over the past few years I've learned a lot of lessons. I've made a lot of mistakes and I've been filled to the top with regret. But this past year, I've learned more lessons than I ever thought possible. This has been a life changing year. This has been a year of revelation.
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