The Overjoyed

I've been getting the strange feeling that I am actually doing something right in my life... a little hint: I don't get that feeling very often. My brain isn't cluttered with stress and chemicals, my family situation will work out for the best, and as of now... I am one happy camper.

When things change, you typically enjoy them at first, then doubt smacks you in the face, then everything settles back in again. Its my attitude and my understanding of other people that helps me keep my peace. I realize that I have certain obligations to tend to... such as my daughter, school, and my direct family. Then again I don't have to tend to any of these things... but I want to.

Sometimes it takes a little arranging in life for things to turn out so that everyone can be happy. To the heartbroken, to those who have been back stabbed, to those who have been pushed around, called names, belittled, and made transparent to emotion... you will be happy again.

Time trains us to see what is unseen by fear and emotional barriers. Time designs a new setting for us to establish trust and love. Time can also make things worse. It can build stronger grudges, bring deeper doubts, and take hatred to a whole new level. But at some point you will have to realize that what is of the past is never important. Its hard to just leave everything in the past... sometimes impossible. But it MUST be done if you want things to get better.

The present and the future is all we need. You cannot sit around worrying about yesterday. You need to be thinking about tomorrow. To let someone down is discouraging, especially when they don't know how to handle it. It tends to be a big mess of back and forth feelings and emotions but at some point you need to realize what the big picture is. Failure after failure after failure... it becomes more apparent that the past is never the key to the future. What happened once may never happen again and its YOU that will be wasting time if you cannot see that life must go on.

I am overjoyed to announce that I have found peace of mind. I rest easily at night knowing that what happens tomorrow could change the rest of my life and I am even more overjoyed to know that I have every bit of power to control that.

-quixotic-