I am more than sick and tired of these feeble road blocks standing in my way. I have a life I need to be living without things that would be issues in the life of an 8th grade student standing directly in my walking space. I have chosen a path of purity, righteousness, and honesty. I have chosen to leave my life of parties and mindless activities to pursue a life after God's own heart and I get spat on. I get pushed down and my knees get scraped and bruised. I get thrown around and accused, I get torn to pieces, I get remotely attacked by my enemies and all for mistakes prior to my cleansing.
What is to become of me. I, as any person should, am taking life by the horns and creating for myself a destiny worth talking about. One worth keeping on record. I am trying to excel in every aspect of my life. But know now that nothing can hold me back. I was a caged animal, restrained by the bounds of repeated intoxication and ridiculous reasoning. I was chained to my own demise and placed behind the bars of distress. And now I am free from all of it. My true colors shine through. I mold my life into the shape that I want it to be and pick and chose the aspects that I want to stay and go. I have put many things in their graves, never to be seen again. I have left my old life entirely.
I will place the pieces of my life exactly where they belong no matter what becomes of the present situation. I can work through any struggle and not let it get me down. I have a clean soul, a pure mind, and a devoted spirit. My allegiance lies with God. My heart belongs to my family and my daughter. My whole body will be used for the pursuing of a healthy life and a motivated lifestyle. I am indulging in only the purest of thoughts. I am thinking only the most faithful of things. And by the grace of God, I have been given this last chance to make my life the way it should have been long ago. And so I rest, knowing that in the morning, I will begin another day filled with love and devotion to my new life... A day that is both challenging and confusing sometimes but when the day meets its end I remember that what will become of me will only be for the betterment of mankind if I continue to follow this road I am on. I sleep knowing that God's plan for me will be just as it was intended to be if I follow this road.
I have gravitated towards a path of loneliness for in myself, I find peace and understanding. I find expressionism my way of venting emotions and feelings. These road blocks I have been facing are petty. They mean nothing to me because I stand strong, knowing that what I am doing is entirely correct and pure in every manner. Believe me, I have my priorities straight and the time for absolute change is now. I am my own shelter from harm... and I will protect myself from evil whenever possible.
-quixotic-