Something just clicked. Whether it be God giving me a pat on the back, or a simple human instinct that says "Hey buddy, keep doing what you're doing. Things are starting to look up for you!" Either way, I'm more than satisfied.
Here I am, continually having negative things to say about the world and its problems... but who was I to say a thing about those problems when mine weren't a great deal better? Well that time has come and gone. There's a new cat writing to your hungry eyes right now... probably not anything you or I would have expected, but at the end of the day, I'm more than satisfied.
I met this girl, woman more-so... but the thing about her that really just tickles my noggin is that she doesn't appear to have any psychotic characteristics! Now, I've experienced this sensation once before, but I sent that relationship into a spiraling black hole of emptiness, and after 2 years or so, I am relieved that I found her, 800 miles from home, and shares every feeling, desire, and passion with me. That doesn't come easy. So here I am, once again, more than satisfied.
I've neglected many responsibilities over the years. I've let things go that should have been fought for, or just not fought at all for the things I really needed. Something is different. Maybe its the climate or the cleaner air hitting my brain. Maybe its because I surrendered everyone and everything I wanted in Dayton and started fresh somewhere far away. Maybe its the progress I've made mentally in more recent events. Whatever the case, I have shaped things up in ways I could never have imagined would EVER happen in Dayton.
I have big plans for the next ten years friends... and I'm excited to share them with you when the time is right. Right now, living in Oklahoma, I may not have my daughter by my side, I may not have my family there to baby me and make sure everything is going chipper on a daily basis, and I may not have the few friends I found to be worth anything here to share good times with me... but they are all just a phone call away. I am happy with my life, and I encourage any of you to do what I did if you are having a tough time where you are now... a fresh start is never a bad thing, and for realizing that, I am MORE than satisfied.
-quixotic-
Here I am, continually having negative things to say about the world and its problems... but who was I to say a thing about those problems when mine weren't a great deal better? Well that time has come and gone. There's a new cat writing to your hungry eyes right now... probably not anything you or I would have expected, but at the end of the day, I'm more than satisfied.
I met this girl, woman more-so... but the thing about her that really just tickles my noggin is that she doesn't appear to have any psychotic characteristics! Now, I've experienced this sensation once before, but I sent that relationship into a spiraling black hole of emptiness, and after 2 years or so, I am relieved that I found her, 800 miles from home, and shares every feeling, desire, and passion with me. That doesn't come easy. So here I am, once again, more than satisfied.
I've neglected many responsibilities over the years. I've let things go that should have been fought for, or just not fought at all for the things I really needed. Something is different. Maybe its the climate or the cleaner air hitting my brain. Maybe its because I surrendered everyone and everything I wanted in Dayton and started fresh somewhere far away. Maybe its the progress I've made mentally in more recent events. Whatever the case, I have shaped things up in ways I could never have imagined would EVER happen in Dayton.
I have big plans for the next ten years friends... and I'm excited to share them with you when the time is right. Right now, living in Oklahoma, I may not have my daughter by my side, I may not have my family there to baby me and make sure everything is going chipper on a daily basis, and I may not have the few friends I found to be worth anything here to share good times with me... but they are all just a phone call away. I am happy with my life, and I encourage any of you to do what I did if you are having a tough time where you are now... a fresh start is never a bad thing, and for realizing that, I am MORE than satisfied.
-quixotic-