Scurrying through life worrying about being accepted and loved is a burden I don't think anyone should have to handle. It's just a matter of loving yourself thats going to make all the difference in the world. Who's to say you can't be whoever the hell you want to be? If you want to be a bum under a newspaper in an alley, then go do it. But who's to say you can't be happy doing it?
Feeling accepted is usually something that either comes as a result from compliments or uplifting remarks from your friends, family, or even a complete stranger. When we are young, we, as children, crave to be appreciated and patted on the back. It's like a dog doing tricks for a treat, only the treat is a heartwarming feeling called "acceptance". I don't know about any of you, but I'm not a dog. I am an individual and to my knowledge, I am the only living creature with a soul and a conscience. If nobody likes the way I do things and if people are going to look down on me for the way I look or act, then they can stay out of my way. I know what I want, and I know what I am going to do to get it. If someone is going to try to trip you up on the way there, then politely push them aside and keep moving forward.Have you ever put yourself in imminent danger and sighed with relief once you were in the clear again? Well this is called stupidity. Don't do it. First off, if you have problems seeing a speck of success in your plan, its not likely to work out too well. Second, if you valued your own life (which you should), you wouldn't be cliffhanging your way to your grave. A rush is good every now and then... but I can assure you, the rush of a telephone pole smacking your dome on a wild night is not going to be the rush youre looking for.
We can all get along... right? Wrong. Everyone wants something different and many will do anything to get it. So along the road, you will encounter a handful of angry idiots, lots of manipulative crazies, people who want to be better than you, and people that get deeply offended when you disagree with them. Its those people that put up the roadblocks for society and social interaction as a whole. But at the same time, they do provide a topic for conversation and a good time. Are you a positive addition to society? Or are you wasting everyone's time and breath putting out negative energy all over the place?
Good friends are a must... even if its just a few. It's not hard to have one, two, three, maybe even four hundred people that you know by name and are fairly up to date on how theyre doing. But having people that know you inside and out... people that will always stretch out their hands to help you back up when you mess up, people that will be by your side until their dying breath... those people, are the people you need to pick out. Those are the people you need to find in that crowd of friendly acquaintances. Focus in on a few you might believe would be good friends for life. Then get to know them better. Its simple. Don't leave them hanging, don't screw them over, make sure they know that you want to be better friends with them.
Here comes the lecture... (coming from a guy that used to destroy everything he touched.)
1. Stop contaminating everything.
2. Stop littering all over. You're just being lazy.
3. Stop destroying your insides with excess toxins... its slow suicide.
4. Stop hating. Hatred only made things chaotic in the past, its not going to be any different now.
5. Stop wasting things. Everything you eat, drink, sit on, drive, burn, smoke, flush, and walk on, is a valuable resource that could make a world of difference somewhere else.
Keep up the eco friendly attitude and maybe we can change something eventually. Or you could not... its up to you.
A more personal note:
I am a thinker. I'm not the guy that puts these things into action... I'm the one brainstorming ways to explain it. I'm the guy that comes up with a thousand ideas a day that no one will ever attribute to me. I'm careless at times, and dilligent when I have to be. I do the things I have to do to succeed, and nothing less. I have strayed off where I should be many times, and hopefully it won't be happening again any time soon. I am working on changing things for myself. Not who I am, but what I do. Not what I've done, but what I am about to do. I WILL be doing the things I need to do... and I WILL put my ideas into action. This is the only life I have or will ever get, so what am I doing letting all these things pile up in my brain with no where to go? I need to express, I need to perform, I need to communicate, and I need to put myself out there... just a little bit more. Its my life, and I wouldn't have it any other way.
I'll leave you with this:
When you are breaking down and haven't a hope in the world, what is it thats overpowering you more than anything? Its not anger. Its not sadness. Its not even hopelessness. Its called regret my friends... and it will suck your bones dry. If you mess up, pick up your pride and don't do it again. No sense in letting your fingertips drag the ground as you're moping around, thinking about all the things you wish you could change about the past. Because it's never going to happen. Not in this era anyways. Feel the need to look for what you need to do differently, but don't wrestle with regret... it'll always win.
-quixotic-