In this life, chaos should be kept to a minimum. We live in a country so controlled by political gurus and fascist dictators that even open artistic expressionism is kept a close eye on. Chaos is necessary at some points in time but in the long haul, your problems will stack up quicker than McDonalds meat patties on a Saturday afternoon if you are continually looking for ways to stir up the fires in your life.
No one can tell us where to draw the line, but we can try to be responsible enough to establish it for ourselves. No one can prevent us from saying what we want to say or expressing ourselves in ways that others might frown upon, but they can punish us by law if we cross the boundaries they have set and we get caught in the act.
Realistically, the way we act and react to things becomes solely based around how willing we are to cross boundaries and push the limits. You cannot expect everyone to be on the same page with you. But you CAN be understanding that their form of laying down a chaotic track on this earth may be entirely different than the way you do it.
Touching a deeper form of chaos, an unspoken chaos. The silent assassin. It comes in the heat of an argument. It deteriorates, slowly but surely, the bonds and ties between people. And it stops at nothing to get what it wants. Some may call it hidden selfish desire. Maybe jealously, sadness, depression, anger, hatred, or even indifference. It is a chaos that runs on our emotions and slowly changes the way we perceive things. But emotions are wicked... and no one has the ability to control them entirely. They can pull us in a direction that wouldn't exactly be logical based on facts, be used as a tool by our enemies, or provide a gateway to infatuation (which isn't really a bad thing). To control a certain emotion would be impossible. Drugs can change the way our brains secrete certain chemicals, yes. But can we really expect to feed ourselves drugs for the rest of our lives just so we don't lose our temper every so often? The old saying, "If you want something done right, you have to do it yourself" applies to this area greatly. We can only change as much as we allow ourselves to. Hidden desires and unspoken chaos will hold us back from taking steps forward no matter how many substances we choke down on a daily basis to drown out the emotional "noise" that floods our heads.
Becoming more aware of the severity of our chaotic output can be tiresome, and I have plenty of work to do myself, but I encourage you to find the one thing that sneaks a smile back onto your face and blurs out all of your emotional tension and cling to that thing like your life depends on it... because in a way, it does.
-Quixotic-