Aptitude Adjustments

I have always had problems with getting things done. Getting home work in on time, getting fines or bills paid on time, keeping myself organized, and caring about things have all been things that I have seemed to not be able to accomplish very easily. I've made plenty of changes in my life in the past few months. It has been a wild ride but I have been hanging in there.

I have lost all doubt in myself. I want to succeed, I want to be organized, and I want to live up to my full potential. Most people have their doubts in me due to my seemingly reoccurring relapses in the past. But this time I believe its different. This time there are no obstacles to keep me from getting done what needs to be done because I have removed all the obstacles. This is real. This is a genuine change of heart.

Since clearing my head of all clutter, I have been recognizing even the smallest of important things and making sure that they are handled properly. I know that there is a destiny for me, I just need to start walking the path to it. School and fatherhood will more than likely be the highlights of this upcoming year for me. Maybe even preparing to be a husband hopefully.

If I put my heart into something, I can usually get it done with little to no effort. If I, even for a second, become careless though, I begin to lose sight of my goal to succeed and start to slip into a careless lifestyle again. So I have made it my number one priority to stay on top of the ball... not put things off, and keep my eyes straight ahead. There will be no looking back for me, no reflection on the past, just running full speed towards fate itself.

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