ow managed to withhold from myself the first and utmost valuable treasure in my being. With my thought train scabbed over with doubt and dismay in not only my relationship but also myself, I pulled my way (torso and legs dragging behind) into a whirlwind of confusion and created for myself a disorderly lifestyle.But there has always been an incomparable amount of potential in me to care and sympathize that I had never been able to see before I made the decision to cleanse myself from unnatural toxins and careless thinking. Fortunately I have, apparently, not fallen too far down the rabbit hole seeing as how I am 19 years young... But that will never coerce me to retreat my regrets on letting so many people down. I could be so much further in my life than I am right now, but I decided, under the influence of careless behavior, to inhabit in a world far more cursed and wretched than the one I was born into.
I am a self-proclaimed "people change" example. Although most cannot yet see it, I can and I will make it known sooner or later that I have in fact changed my entire perspective on life and will remain this way so long as I shall live on this earth. I reflect on none of my past to help me attain the future, and I disregard the mistakes I have made as being learning experiences. Nonetheless, I still see the effects my mistakes have had on my present which will forever haunt me. Yet still, these mistakes will allow me to see what kind of a person I would not and could not ever become again.
The first and most valuable treasure to me is my ability to acknowledge my own existence as being one worth putting every ounce of effort into in hopes of achievement and success in both career life and family life. My beautiful daughter will receive all the attention I should have given her long ago and so much more from this day forth. I will put my whole heart and soul into revealing to the one I love so dearly, that I am no longer under the chains and shackles of intoxication, stupidity, and degrading morals that once made me a liar, a cheater, and a coward and that I will forever be the true, faithful, passionate, and loving man she once believed me to be. I will push with every bit of my effort to be a both active and dominant member of my family. And lastly, I will strive to the best of my strength to succeed as both a student and an employee. If this is not affirmation of destiny, then there ought not be one at all.
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