I want to know if you can bury the hatchet along with the handle. I want you to forgive me or at least know if you will be able to. I don't want the little one caught between our mess no matter what happens. I want her to be able to look up to both of us rain or shine. I want to know where you stand and how you feel. I want you to realize that I want to change. I want this to be the turning point in my life. I want to know that the past is and always will be in the past. I want to believe in myself and have the confidence to do this without having all these questions about what I am actually fighting for. I want to know If I can have a family with you or if you can ever even see it being that way. I want to know why you think my family justifies what I did to you as a good thing. I want to know when we can stop talking about the past and start thinking about what the future might be like. And I want you to know that there is no one on this earth that will care more about you two. I want you to know that I'm not playing you like a fool. I want you to know that I will now and will forever be here for you two and my family as well as yours. I want you to know that you can ask anything from me and I will do it. I want you to know that I am willing to do anything to get this family back on track. I want you to know I am sorry.