The Honesty

To be completely honest, I want to somehow let you know that my lies and betrayal are done and gone, never to be seen again. Honestly, I see you being the greatest decision and aspect of my life and I cannot tell you how sorry I am for taking you for granted. I know that our relationship, in the past, has been full of terrible arguments and unfaithful choices, but I assure you that time has passed over. There is a future to be established here that cannot continue to be corrupted by my bad decisions and I beg of you to see that everything that has happened prior to my changes are points of disgust in my eyes. I see them as being decisions that chain reacted into a bigger, more terrible problem and that was letting you go. I have never regretted anything more in my life than I do about denying what we had. I feel so guilty for disgracing the wonderful bond we had. I am imperfect, and I am human. As young as I am, I do not see it being to late for me to make drastic changes in my lifestyle and perception on life. Honestly, I have never been so sincere about anything in my life. There is doubt boiling all over inside you, I realize that... but I have already changed so much just for my personal well being. Why would you think I could not change even more just for you. The gratitude I have for you standing by my side and trusting me in the past is unconditional, unmeasurable, and constant. I have let you down a few times, and I have dug myself an even bigger hole in the process... but see me as who I am striving to be. See me as the man I have been trying so hard to become. See me as who I really am and not who I used to be.

-quixotic-