Believe It Or Not

I feel different than I have ever felt. Believe it or not I feel like a new man. I know I've been unfaithful but believe it or not, I could never be again. Believe it or not I've learned so much from my mistakes. I'm trying to help and I am trying so hard to make this family work. Believe it or not, I have every intention of being here for the both of you until I pass away. I hold back so much emotion from you because I just want you to believe I have the confidence to do this, but believe it or not, I cry sometimes just because of what I did to you. I'll try my best to stand up for you in the ways you want me to, but believe it or not, I'm not as tough as my ego says I am. I know God doesn't mean too much to you... but he does to me, and believe it or not, I want what he wants for my life and if I feel like God is calling me to make things right with this family and do everything I can to win your trust back, then that is what I will have to do. Believe it or not, I am completely apologetic and sincere about what I have done in the past... I know I've said it a thousand times, but I would never do it again. I know its close to impossible for you to trust me but I also know time can fix things. I know that time can heal if you let time in. Believe it or not, I do not mean to put so much pressure on you, its just my instincts kicking in. I feel like you keep slipping further away from me the harder I try and I would rather you just be happy than anything else. Believe it or not, humans make mistakes big and small. Believe it or not, I am and always will be only human... but I believe 100 percent that I will be faithful, I believe that I can achieve putting us back where we left off, I believe that people change for the better, I believe that God can help me through these struggles, and I believe that whatever happened in the past will always be in the past and will never be in the future again. Believe it or not, I will now and will always love you.